Words and Artwork Zaenab Baisaheba J. Imaduddin. (@zaenabimaduddin)
11 June, 2020
A breath you take and a breath you give. Is this delicately balanced transaction an indication that nothing comes for free, except that which is destined for me? By this reckoning, is not prayer also a transaction?
I resort to prayer because:
- Allah Ta’ala states in the Noble Quran,
(Pray to Me and I will answer your prayers!)
(Remember Me and I shall remember you!)
- The Hadeeth reminds me that
(Prayer is a believer’s weapon.)
- Hudaat Kiraam AS exhort us,
(Ask of Allah Ta’ala to your heart’s content and do not be bashful for He is generous.)
- I wish to redeem that which I have lost by means of the invocation,
(O One who restores what has been lost.)
However, if I ask for that which is beyond my destiny–my energy grid–does it then mean that some other energy is lost to compensate? Or does it imply (cleansing of sin) so that the new can manifest?
Should I then continue to supplicate for what I believe is due to me? Or should I instead choose to resign to the Provider of my (fate), whilst taking solace from Ameerul Mumineen’s AS adage
(Take rest, for your livelihood pursues you)?
Should I not repose my complete trust in Allah Ta’ala as did Nabi Ibrahim SA who stated “If it is Allah’s will that I perish in the fire, then who am I to desire otherwise? If He wants to save me, He will!” Should I not seek inspiration from Imam Husain AS in Karbala when he sheathed his sword and accepted martyrdom in submission to the will of his Creator?
Should I continue praying to alter my fate since I am assured that (prayer can alter what has ordained by fate)? Or should I look to Nabi Ibrahim SA and Imam Husain AS who chose (to be satisfied with what was written in fate) during their most trying times, despite having recourse to alter what was predestined for them?
Should I continue to dwell on what I believe is rightfully mine and what I have been denied? Or should I not, in a state of patient trust, believe that indeed He knows the right balance is for me? Is it not better, then, that I pray for repentance whilst detached from the outcome?
If fate can be changed, what is the cost of that change, particularly if it affects the delicate balance between giving and receiving? Are some of my prayers granted at the expense of other rewards destined for me?
A breath you take and a breath you give.